I did not know

I did not know that love was so kind
I did not know that love spoke quietly
I did not know that in the quiet moments
when it is least expected
the thoughts the feelings the dreams
were what one asked for
were fulfilled
I did not know that asking I would receive
I did not know that I would not recognize it
until
I did not know
for lack of understanding
for pain endured in a lifetime
would make me not see
not feel
not hear
not recognize
that kindness and love were steps in front of you

I did not know until I did that what I asked for was given
to be loved without more
to be cared for without needing
and when I did it was the gift
I never would have seen




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