If only I could, and to my surprise, I did

I was just thinking last night, that what a life I've had. For so many years I spent so much energy trying to figure out what career I should have, what I should do with my life. And while none of that ever resolved because the wheels seemed to spin in mud, I became an artist and photographer and created work that I never, EVER, not in a million years, would have dreamed I could do.

Today I am worried about my future, but mercy living such great experiences, to have been able to use my hands, my eyes, my whole being, to create things that I see as beauty. I would not have known this me, it would have remained hidden, my mind could never have conceived this direction. I did that...
And my point here I think is that life doesn't always give us what we want, but what serves us best whether we want it or not.  For years I've felt the universe was herding me, nudging me away from some things, forcing me to make changes, make moves I didn't want to make.  And resisted, so much so it caused pain.  

It's like trying to be a plant that refuses to grow, the unwillingness, the resistance.  Nature takes your hand and is rarely subtle about it, has a mind of its own - it pushes, and pushes.  

It's no mistake to describe a great energy as a force of nature.  Life is as well, and when something needs to grow, it pushes through, not of its own will, but because of life's need to be.  My need is to capture, to emulate, the moments of beauty in simple things, of finding the truth of what is felt and seen.  

Life compels us, to live, to be, to become.  



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